dear jesus,

if i'm supposed to be alone for the rest of my life can you help me be okay with that? sometimes feeling abandoned hurts real bad-and it's hard to remember that you are all i need. i need you. so much. please show me the path you want me on and give me the wisdom to recognize it when you do.

love, your daughter

more sense

life just seems to work out better for me when i'm paying attention to jesus and trying to live the way he wants. if that's not proof of the big guy upstairs, i don't know what is.

so i've got a lot to say-but no time to say it. sometimes soon i think i'll talk about how my own desire is to leave forest city, but i'm not sure if that's what god has planned for me just yet. i'll also talk about responsibility and how we have a responsibility to others. i know there is a lot more, and i just can't think of it right now. i was reading blue like jazz. that book gets me thinking. i recommend it to anyone. it's non-religious thoughts on christian spirituality. i promise it won't be what you're expecting.

oh yeah, and i want to go visit amanda tonight, but i don't know if that will work out. i'd only go tonight, and it'd depend on if i could get a ride, but we'll see what happens. (i hope she doesn't have awaken!)

xoxo.

hebrews 9:11-14

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see so clearly

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing Your praise

leaving

i'm really struggling with some people in my life, and while i don't want harm to come to them i wouldn't mind it if they weren't in my life anymore. in fact, i think it's what is best.

winter downs

i'm getting a new phone soon.

i am a sinner

sometimes that realization hits home pretty hard.

thank God for Jesus.